One of those nights in which the anger

has momentarily left me. It's been a hell week. Lost two nights of sleep over a bullshit job. Thank god the frickin stuff finally started hardening up. I went out this morning into the place and was SO relieved!

But I was still easy to anger, I won't go into the specifics. It has just been a frustrating week, when i did not get as much done as I had hoped it.

Then Kevin called and asked if I was going to pickup the trailer today. now it's raining crazy all day. So i say sure, why not, the day is already shot. So I get the puppy and sit her in the truck and off we go.

I have a great conversation with MA on the way. Get the trailer, meet J to pick up the offical LOM trophy for the show, and now it's pitch dark and raining, but I don't care.

I'm happy. The puppy is unreal good. I have never bonded with a dog likethis before. They bond with me and love me, but I have so much love for this pup. She constantly amazes me. She is so good. I could see it bringing her home from CT 3 weeks ago.

And I have felt good ever since. The rain is hitting the tin cover on the bathroom fan vent and I love the sound. Can't wait till we get a new tin roof on the house. I dig the sound of the rain. It is so soothing, relaxing. I'm sitting here on my bed, onthe quilt I have had since 1990, leaning against my incredible new glass and oak headboard that MA talked me into getting. I'm so glad she did.

I'm sure some kind of shitstorm will hit in the next or day and I will hate everything or/and myself, and have no one but myself (or my idiot brother) to blame, but for now, I'm content. I guess that's it, ya have to take your contentment in small doses. Maybe it never lasts. I remember a piece of prose titled "Contentment." When I was 12 years old, I taped it to my mirror and looked at it everyday, hoping someday to achieve it. Maybe contentment is not a thing that can be constant. You have to take it when it happens. Savor those moments while they last.