ok so today

I am feeling better.

A little scared careerwise. I feel in over my head.

But it has helped take my mind off the other thing. Hoping I start to feel tired of feeling that way.

Don't really know what to think. have not heard from the girl. That call will tell me alot.

maybe.

Then today I remembered what Rebel said all those long years ago. About vunerable men. It appears he is that. What she said about wanting something. It still rings true for me.

But it is different this time. I cannot forget that.

All I can do is get to know him better. That's it.

For now.

And dreams.

if there never is another night.

..........................this one is hard. This is a real rare person.